I started a new project. You can check it out at http://www.live365.com/stations/trubeliever. I created my own internet radio station. If anyone has songs they would like added just let me know. You can listen to it too. The more listeners, the higher I will be rated on Live365. I made some cool industry connections in the process of starting it so it will be neat to see what happens with those.

It has been a great week. There have been some real praises! I am thankful I have a good job and a great boss.

Ahh! It is a brand new day! I figured out something very important last night. I need to just go forward. I will figure out how to do that inspite of some other people. I will have to look outside of the normal to find the solution to this problem. I will do anything I can to plunge forward! LET'S ROLL!

I am at an interesting place right now. I don't know what I am feeling. I have a large amount of passion right now that I think I am not able to channel. I am getting a sense that I possible have taken too much ownership in something. I am starting to feel that I am fighting more than I should be. I am holding people to levels of living that I can not obtain. I am trying to give all I am for this one thing and I am starting to feel like I should not be. Maybe the problem is not the other people I look at, but myself. Maybe I can not accept that I might be called to more than some others who are close to me. I can not figure out what I am supposed to be doing. Some say I need down time to process what has been going on, but I don't think that is it. I feel this uncontrollable desire to run, but to where, and why? I want to figure this out. I am not coming to any happy conclusions. You probably think I am rambling. You are correct. I am trying to have a conversation with myself. For most of you who know me this will seem odd. I usually do not try to figure my things out. I usually just go on until they work themselves out. I feel like I can not this time. I feel an uneasiness, a restlessness in my spirit. I don't know.

The hard part for me is I am a leader. God has given me this for a reason, but for what? I am starting to feel like I am not able to lead in the small things. I want more inspiration, more wisdom as to what I am supposed to do. I am ending up with dead ends when I stick my neck out. Maybe the problems are related. I feel like I should be leading, but what? Where am I supposed to lead people?

The people I used to look up to have faded into the back seats of life. The people that have groomed me are gone. There is no one to look to but myself. They have set me free on this life adventure, but now what? Evidently I am strong enough now to figure this out. I hope I can listen to God enough to be able to get the message.

I wish I was not in the place, but it is not my call. I pray that God will help me sort all of this out. Thank you for listening to my thoughts. Let me know if you have any comments.

God Bless.